Feed me with what I need - Proverbs 30:8

Enough Is Enough

Two things I ask of you; deny them not to me before I die: Remove far from me falsehood and lying; give me neither poverty nor riches; feed me with the food that is needful for me, lest I be full and deny you and say, “Who is the LORD?” or lest I be poor and steal and profane the name of my God. – Proverbs 30:7-9 ESV

Proverbs 30:7-9 shows us the troubles of both not having our needs meet and having too much stuff in our lives. On the one side, not having enough tempts us to get what we need in whatever way we can. The flip of that is that we tend to trust in ourselves and our stuff when we have more than what we need.

The desire of the author is to be content with what he has, saying, “Feed me with the food that is needful for me.” In order to be satisfied with what we have, we have to know and believe one thing, what we have is what we need. Or, perhaps, we will have what we need.

So many things in our lives distract us from what is truly needed in our life. I’m not saying that, since we can live on bread and water, we should never have more than that. I personally don’t call that living. But I also know that I cling to things that I think are valuable or important but that in the end, have no lasting value.

In addition, I base my decisions and sense of comfort and stability on some underlying idea of what happened yesterday will happen today and will continue on in the future. We all do this; it’s a part of staying sane in this world. In and of itself, I don’t think it’s a wrong way to think. The problem comes in when we limit our future to what we know and can see. The future is a big unknown and trying to mold it and manipulate it into our way of thinking only ends in disappointment.

God holds our days and knows our steps (Job 14:5). We can fully rely on and trust Him to provide for whatever is coming our way. In fact, fighting Him about what we need or don’t need only ends with us having to learn the hard way that He knew what He was doing the whole time.

I recently read a fantastic example of this on Ann Voskamp’s blog, A Holy Experience. Her son had some difficult health issues recently and she talks in her entry about the struggle and pain, but also joy and growth that comes through that.

God knew this would happen. He knows what will happen and knows the length and quality of Ann’s son’s life. He isn’t surprised or disappointed by the diagnosis her son received. Ann says this, “Grieving how plans change — is part of the plan to change us.” Just because tomorrow brings unexpected news to us doesn’t mean God won’t be there every step of the way. He will provide what is needful for us today, tomorrow and forever.

For God Alone

For God Alone

Psalm 62:1-2 For God alone my soul waits in silence; from him comes my salvation. He alone is my rock and my salvation, my fortress; I shall not be greatly shaken.

For God Alone

I imagine a busy blustering world and a person at the center, calm and still. I think of a busy subway station with people moving about, sometimes even running, with a person at the heart of it not moving.

Putting that image in my heart, I see myself being brushed past by voices, hearing them shout at me at how I’ll miss out or what I should have done. I feel pulled at by desires and anxieties, and they’re trying to get me to fight them off and at the same time let them stay. My own voice fills my head with troubled thoughts and tension; my mind a chaotic mess of dreams and regrets. Knowing Who I wait for allows me to see past the distraction and deceit of all the others, waiting only for Him.

And at the center there’s me, standing firmly and not letting any of it grab a hold. None of the chaos, none of the desires, none of the anxiety. I’m waiting. Waiting for the Lord alone and none other. I know He will come; He’s promised and He’s proven Himself time and again. Nothing interested me, nothing distracts me. I stand and wait and see all the other things fade away in their time. Knowing Who I wait for keeps me grounded and peaceful, waiting only for Him.

God Is My Fortress

There are things I want to lean on, and there are people I want to save me. There are goals to accomplish and sights to see. People promise, but the promises are limpid and fake. They are not trying to be fake, but they are because they are mortal and limited. They will not always fail, of course, but even success is deceitful. Nothing will save me; nothing will give me hope. Everything fades and leaves. There are walls that feel secure and ideas that seem filled with promise. But the secure walls eventually fall down and the ideas, even if they deliver, will only last a season.

All the other things fade away, but not God. He is there always and forever. God is my fortress: the place of safety in times of trouble. God is my salvation: the one who keeps my eternal life in His hands. God is my rock: the anchor and help, the foundation for building.

I Shall Not Be Greatly Shaken

Because I know this, I will not be moved by shifting emotions. I will not let others influence me away from the truth of God. I will find out who God made to be. I will stand by the promises He makes because of who He is. I don’t ever think for a moment that I deserve any of this; I trust that He will always provide because of who He is, not who I am.

I don’t fear the rising tide of fear and lies. I don’t listen to the fear-mongers the conspiracies of war and deceit. I don’t believe anything contradicting the Word of the Lord. I will not be moved. I will not be shaken.

God is my all.

Solomon Asks for Wisdom

Solomon approached the Lord showing an understanding of the true relationship between God and David: it was based on who God was and David’s obedience. Solomon saw that the blessings given to David weren’ a lucky chance or simply God playing favorites.

In asking for wisdom Solomon acknowledged his own inability. He didn’t say, “Well, you know I’m a pretty wise guy, but I could probably use some divine intervention to make me super awesome.” No, what he said was, “I do not know how to go out or come in.” (1 Kings 3:7b). Solomon felt completely unable to be the king, unable to make the decisions necessary to run a mighty kingdom. He knew that the only way to fulfill the mantle of king that had been passed down to him was to rely fully on God. God asked what he wanted, and Solomon requested wisdom (1 Kings 3:1-15). As a result, God promises him “both riches and honor, so that no other king shall compare with you, all your days.” (v. 13).

In Matthew, we hear the same advice from Jesus, “But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you.” (Mathew 6:33 [NKJV]). This passage of scriptures is specifically talking about not worrying about all the day to day cares of life. Jesus is saying that He is the source of all our needs and we need to make Him our priority. Everything outside of that falls into place.